Dear Ultimate Consciousness,
This morning something challenged me to acknowledge a different aspect of negativity in my life. I have been intentional about working on keeping the 1st agreement and being impeccable with my thoughts and words. I have been intentional about avoiding gossip, criticism, thinking negative things about others or myself. I have been intentional about sending love, light, and positive energy to those who do not appear to be vibrating at the same level that I am, or who appears to be in need of healing.
Then it hit me, who am I to determine they are in need of healing or not vibrating at the same level then I am. How do I know that? How do I know what someone can or cannot do? If they think they cannot do something, then that is about them. If I think they cannot do something, or I cannot do something, then that is about me. Why would I contribute to the belief that something is not possible? Why am I judging others and their abilities?
I am not sure I have the answers to these questions this morning. I do know, however, that I am going to work on being mindful of when these thoughts begin to enter my consciousness, acknowledge them as negative energy, seek out what is triggering that energy, and work at removing that from my belief system.
I know that sometimes when I feel suspicious of someone or something it is related to a past hurt that I need to heal. I do not know what people’s intents are, but when I acknowledge that what for someone is an innocent comment takes on additional meanings in my head, then that is about me. I need to acknowledge that it has triggered a wound I need to heal or a lie that has been planted in my psyche that I need to remove.
This morning I was looking at my favorite coffee cup, which has been around for over 20 years between me and its previous owner who left it behind and never got it back (her choice). I am sure at one point it was bright and shiny, but when I look closely at the inside of the cup now, I can see all these tiny little cracks. Sometimes I think that is how life is. We start with no wounds or lies, although some may debate that, but over time, we develop cracks due to the lies taught us, the way in which we were domesticated, and our experiences with others. Then as we begin to work on the healing in our life, we examine each of those little cracks and attempt to clean it, learn from it, and keep it from being restained.
I have become pretty good at focusing on what is good in my life and not complaining. I have realized that I am highly allergic to drama, trauma, and crises. I have worked hard at not portraying myself as a victim, but rather as an achiever and overcomer.
Today, I am acknowledging that I have the power to be the good news in my life and in the life of others. I have the power to remind people what they can do and not agree with them when they are putting themselves down. I am acknowledging that I do not have to wait on others to give me something to celebrate and make me happy, I can give that to myself. I have the power to make my day and someone else’s a little bit brighter. I can be a source of encouragement for others and myself. I can be whatever I choose to be because I have the power to release that which is not positive, loving, and affirming. I acknowledge that I have the power to be the good news in my life. I am the good news.