Seriously, I always think I am far more evolved then I am and then you find a way to humble me and open me up to possibilities beyond my imagination. The most recent was this weekend, when you sent Diana over to talk to me about this Thrive for Women program. Honestly, I was not sure. I accepted her three-day sample for a few reasons. First, it was free and I had choice about what I did or did not do with it. Second, she was not pushy and never made a comment about my weight. Third, because my friend Kelly raves about this program and she doesn’t rave about many products.
I have always been very accepting of what comes my way. I had learned to find ways of staying focused, balanced and positive when my paratransit service were virtually eliminated. I have adjusted and thanked you for the decline in my health. I have always been open to seeing the blessings in all situations. In part because my Bubby had always told me if I could see the blessings in any situation, then I knew I would be okay.
Not that I was going bring on more pain or bring on more stress, but I never said I am not open to what comes my way. So Tuesday morning I started this three day sample not expecting I would see a difference. Really?
Ok so, honestly, maybe I was not as open as I thought I was. In all honesty, I was probably not expecting I would notice a difference in three days. However, I was wrong. Honestly, it is the crazy things like how all of a sudden when I open the refrigerator door for no real reason, my brain has been saying let’s go for a walk. Let’s do a lap or two up and down the hallway. Really? WTH where did that voice come from. Or then there is the fact that Zoe has not made a single comment about me being, how shall we say this, musical. Or the fact that at the end of the first day I was not in pain as I prepared to go to bed. Or how the next morning I could lift my bad leg higher then I have in months. Seriously.
Ok, so then I the voice of doubt came through and said really you got excited like this once before and in a few hours all the pain came back. However, I am now on day three and I still have tons of energy, I am still calm and relaxed and I am still relatively pain free. I can still lift my leg higher then I have been able to do for months and I was able to get my bad leg out of bed again with minimal effort.
I may not be able to stay on this right now, but I now know that I need to be open to the unusual and different ways you hear and answer prayers. I guess I should have learned this lesson in seminary when I asked you to help me become more forgiving. You accomplished this by having someone “rent” my car to drug dealers without my consent. Or how after Lu and I separated and I asked you to not send anyone into my life again unless they were meant to stay with me in good times and bad and would love me unconditionally. Then you help me find my soulmate and wife who lived a 10-hour drive away. Thanks for the reminder that you rarely answer my prayers the way I expect you to. I need to stay open to receiving the answers in the way only you can send them.
Thanks for reminding me to stay open!
Love you and your sense of humor.