I would like to be able to come to you and say that I treat myself amazingly well. However, I try to be more honest with you then I am with anyone else, including myself. I am awesome at saying I am going to do something, but I break promises with myself all the time. Like tonight I said I was going to take some time to be a shlump and I did not. I did not walk as much as I should have today. I ate fairly healthy today which is a good thing, but probably mostly because I have been intentional about keeping the junk food out of the house. I did get enough sleep and I have paid myself compliments, but I am not taking as good care of my body as I need to. I am working on treating myself as well as I treat others. As Iyanla Vanzant reminded me recently, at present I am allowing others to be thieves in my life and they do not even know that I am allowing them to do that. Well maybe they will if they read this. LOL
I am trying to think of myself as a little girl and remembering to nurture myself the way I would nurture my child. So there are some things I am really good at. I am good at telling myself that I love myself and how amazing I am. I am good at remembering that I am never alone and I am surrounded by your love, your strength and the supporters you have bought into my life to bring me through the times when I feel like I am struggling.
Where I seem to struggle is in taking care of myself health wise. I am eating better and making sure I get my eight hours of sleep, but I need to work on the exercise part. Sometimes I wish I had a live in fitness coach who would say hey its time to do x, y and z. I guess I need to hire myself and become that.
I am good at doing things for myself. I make myself my tea, intentionally schedule things so I can spend time with friends, fill the house with scents that make me feel loved, listen to music that ministers to my soul, drink lots of water with all kinds of fresh fruits and herbs in it, and try to get outside at least once a day.
Today I was pretty proud of myself because I set healthy boundaries with someone. She was not listening to me and being supportive of a task we needed to do together. Since she was disrespecting me I thanked her for the opportunity, but that it was not a good fit and I needed to step away. Whoo hoo! This was my I rock moment for the day.
When I stood up for myself, I realize I was also advocating for myself. It was not that they were rude or unkind, but they were not listening and creating a hostile environment. So I advocated for myself because I could feel that voice from within saying I do not want your energy around me
As I think about it, maybe it is the nurturing I give myself and get from others that is in part behind why I love doing Pampered Chef. I am surrounded by people who tell me I can do it and that they believe in me. Being around such amazing people has helped me become the captain of Team Sharon! Team Sharon rocks!
I am also grateful that I do not beat myself up. I am perfectly me at this moment. Other people might not think so, but that is about them. So every day I work at practicing having compassion for myself. If I can be compassionate with myself, then I am better able to truly be compassionate with others.
But tonight I am especially grateful for all you do to nurture me and how you love me even when I am lying to myself and others. You are always there to protect and nurture me. So thank you for being an example for me of how I am to nurture myself.
Hugs and love,